Proof in the Pose

My birthday was two weeks ago, and I haven’t been able to muster up a single letter to type. I mean it’s been two years, I should have a lot to say, right? I’ve done many things to converse about, had many losses and wins to discuss. Yet I couldn’t come up with anything to say. Me?! I think it was partly because I have so much to say and more so because I don’t give a fuc to share.  

At some point in this journey, I have willingly become more protective of my energy and where it is dispensed. Who I celebrate my wins with and who I discuss my failures with. I used to talk about a time like this. When I was actually free from attachment to others and things I don't need. It’s lonely. Hard. Yet I can see the growth. I can see what I am attempting to obtain getting closer and closer. 

I actually hadn’t planned on writing anything, just updating the website and moving on. Until I came across a picture I took when I first began to model. A look back had looked so familiar to me. Seeing the picture let me know that no matter how much I grow, my core is still the same. It confirmed that my growth didn’t need to be discussed. The proof was in the pose.